Home Sweet Home

Dear Owen,
I am sorry that it's been a while since my last letter, but in the past few weeks there has been a lot discussion and decision making going on in the Beale household. I am happy to tell you that as of April 1st, I will officially be a stay-at-home Mommy! I have been struggling with balancing motherhood and work since I went back to work. It has always been our dream that I would be able to stay home with you. A few days before your baptism, my manager called me into her office for a chat. The company I work for is suffering in this current economic state. In today's world, lots of people are losing their jobs and struggling to make ends meet. I wasn't shocked to learn that my weekly hours were going to be reduced from 40 to 30. This cut back still allows my company to keep it's employees while attempting to reduce cost. I can't say that I was surprised, but it was still a very sad day. This meeting proved to be the ultimatum we needed to make the decision for me to stay at home. After lots (LOTS) of discussion with your Daddy and other family/friends, we decided it was not in our family's best interest for me to continue working. With the majority of my salary going to childcare expenses, would it really be worth it? After much deliberation and consideration, we decided no. I am excited yet nervous. I have always been on the go and a very active person. I worry I will miss the adult interaction I have on a daily basis. It will be a change to have more solo time dedicated to you and the housework that is usually neglected. If everything works out, I am hoping and praying that your Daddy and I will soon be able to give you a sibling without having to worry about paying twice as much for childcare. I know this is the right decision for our family. While I am not entirely sure of the logistics of the finances, we are willing to take this leap of faith. I am confident that we won't regret this decision. Life as we know it about to change forever and I can't wait to start enjoying every day with you.
I love you,
Mom